Don't ask how I got here, I don't really know what is wrong with me or why I do this to myself.
Most importantly I am back up to 145.4 pounds and I am liquid fasting for the next two days to hopefully sort it out and get be back down to where I was in a fucking hurry. I am miserable being this heavy again.
I ran today and my net for the day is under 100 calories so I am pretty happy about that. I am going to lift some weights soon and hopefully lose this weight in the next three or four days. I figure if I can put it on in three days I should be able to get it off in three days. Especially if it is bloating and the weight of the food still being processed by my terrible digestive system. I am hoping that by drinking tons of water and tea I can flush out my system without the use of laxatives. I have never used them and they scare the crap out of me!
On a TMI note the break-though bleeding from my birth control still has not stopped and I am looking forward to starting a new pack so I can hopefully no longer have this fucking issue. I hate it. I feel like I can't do anything sexual with my hubby and I feel like an emotional wreck all the fucking time for no reason. FUCKING KILL ME PLEASE!
On a happy note I am going to be doing a liquid fast at least one day a week for the foreseeable future. I am aiming to do two days, Friday and Saturday since I will not have to go to work or anything. Hopefully I can hit 130 in the next two weeks, that's the plan anyhow.
I hope all you folks out there are doing better than I have been. STAY STRONG!
Much love lovelies,
Miss Sinister
This is about me and my life. It is my journey through time and space and about personal discovery. This will be triggering and hard to read, you have been warned.
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