I am going to keep trying to post at least once a day since this blog keeps me on track like nothing else can. I feel like I need to be honest and true to you all even though I know that I need to keep my self hidden it feels good to have people out there who want me to remain strong and determined. <3 br="">
I love you all.
I have my reasons for acting like I do and while I hate to say it I keep lying to people about not having an ED. It is totally believable considering what a fat cow I am. Seriously what kind of person is a 144 pound anorexic? Can I even qualify as an Ana? I do try to eat every now and again, and I do take vitamins, but I feel like I can't eat anything or I will eat everything. I don't stop when I'm full I stop when it hurts to keep eating and then I purge. It is terrible and the first time I lost a ton of weight I never did this insane binge purge bullshit so I think I just need to buckle down and start to control myself a lot better.
I am looking forward to tomorrow so I can weigh myself. I know I will have lost weight.
I am netting in the negative today I am sure!
Think Thin!
Miss Sinister
This is about me and my life. It is my journey through time and space and about personal discovery. This will be triggering and hard to read, you have been warned.
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