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One of the girls I work with just called me fat ass. Right after I was talking to her about being pissed that I am gaining weight like crazy. She doesn't know about my ED struggles. The only thing I can think now is.

'Thanks for pointing that out. I wasn't planning on eating anyways.'

I'm 465 calories in for the day and my goal is under 1200. Like a normal person would eat while dieting. I'm restricting in a healthy way. Hopefully this will work out for me, if not I'm going to just keep restricting until I get a number I am happy with. I can't let my ED win, it does not get to take over my life. I'm done, I meant it and I mean it now.

I am going to be a heathy happy 24 year old girl. I'm not going to let this monster win anymore. I'm determined to finish insanity and be super sexy and finally feel beautiful. I can do this!