Soooooooo...

I ate soup and then green beans to stop myself from binging and my husband came home and I ended up eating some noodles a few swirly cakes and icecream.  

It all came back up (thank god) and I'm drinking like a gallon of tea at the moment in an attempt to not do it again but Matt looked really happy to see me eating. He even smiled at me and asked me if it tasted good. No sarcasm no laughing just genuinely happy to see me eating like a real girl. It made me feel good for a bit. I do feel horrible for purging it and hiding it from him.

He will be happy once I'm thin. I'm not there yet but I will be soon. Maybe then we both can be attracted to eachother. When I'm thin he will enjoy sex again. I can fucking do this.

I hope my scale will make me happy tomorrow reguardless of my failures. 

Think thin!

Miss Sinister