160.5. I know It's night time. I know I weigh more because of the weight of the food, I really can not be made to care, I am inches from a full blown meltdown. I loath my entire being. Please someone kill me. I want to fucking die.
As the title says: I binged and then threw up some of it. I know the cycle well so I
am breaking it as fast as I can. I bought juice at the store, 5 calorie juice
to be exact. I am taking laxatives right now and starting a juice, water, and tea
fast for at least 48 hours starting right now. I refuse to let this kill me. I
will not allow this to happen. I am stronger than this, I am the one in
control.
I would like to say now that I love every
single one of my readers. I know most of you will not comment but I get your
emails and your texts and the few of you who do comment; well I want you to
know I read them all. You all make me really happy. You make me feel like I can
be in control of myself; it’s because of you that it’s possible for me. So
thank you. I love you all, stay strong when I was not able to. Know that I’m with you and
at least when we fail that we have each other to rely on.
Stay sane out there,
Miss Sinister
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