The laxatives I took are still working their way through my
system. I managed to go a bit this morning but I can feel a fire in my gut
still so I know they are not done quite yet. Thus far today I am drinking coffee
and feeling like a fat fuck. I have a modeling gig in Austin in a few weeks and
they want the slim girl in my photos not a fat ugly pain in the ass that I am
currently. I am ready to have a panic attack now; so I am liquid fasting until
further notice. How am I going to impress these people? They work with
supermodels not just fat girls who used to take pretty pictures.
I don’t even know if I could still do this. It has been so
long since I did a photo shoot. I’m freaking out.
Hopefully I can lose at least 14 pounds before the shoot. I
can only pray it will work out at this point, I am sure I can still make a
photo look okay but the question is can I make it look good enough to sell? I
really don’t know the answer to that.
Stay strong loves,
Miss Sinister
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