Today and the past few days have been going well. I know it seems hard to believe but I am going to be fasting around my boyfriend now. I can't handle eating with him and then starving myself when I get home. So now I guess I am going to be just starving myself all the time now. Yeah my brain is broken like that.
I have a new job, again. Now I am working at a vet clinic and it is a ton of fun. Although the trade off for liking my job is the pay is total shit. Although I told everyone at my work I am a vegan so they leave me alone when I don't eat around them. Work keeps me from thinking about food though. I do try to restrict as best I can when I am off but today I feel like a total fat ass. I ate 321 Calories thus far today. I am going to tell Ben tonight I don't want to eat anymore and I am going to ask him to not ask me to eat at all anymore. I want to lose at least 50 pounds and I feel like that is totally doable in the next two months,
All it takes is 30 days to lose 30 pounds. 30 days of fasting to create a habit. right now I am on day 3 of being good. I plan to make day 10 then day 20 then day 30 then day 40 and so on. I will be the master of myself.
Make yourselves proud,
Miss Sinister
This is about me and my life. It is my journey through time and space and about personal discovery. This will be triggering and hard to read, you have been warned.
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