I am heavy, my fat girl clothes fit. B has been nothing but supportive and I love him for it. However I feel like a fat cow.
Fuck.
I bet I'm over 160. I bet I'm close to 170.
I started taking herbal pills and they kind of work. It's not being hungry that is the problem for me. It's my brain refusing to listen to me, I was told once that you can't lose weight unless you are ready to lose weight. When you are ready you stop making poor decisions.
Maybe I can start making the right ones.
Much love,
Miss Sinister
This is about me and my life. It is my journey through time and space and about personal discovery. This will be triggering and hard to read, you have been warned.
Hey, I'm glad that the herbal pills kind of work.
ReplyDeleteI too have skinny clothes and fat clothes :D
It's better to smile than to cry at the irony.
If the hunger isn't the problam why don't you do a day or two of liquid diet, and I'm not saying just coffee and water. Try smoothies. Thay allways make my brain a little clearer and I feel clean :D