Binge and purge, binge and purge

I feel filthy. So much for staying strong. I binged. On jambalaya asparagus and twizzlers. I got a lot of it out but who knows how much is left?

That's my main problem with Mia. You can never be sure how much is really out.

Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels. Nothing will ever be worth being fat. Matt didn't even want to have sex since I'm so fat and ugly. He couldn't even get off and he has told me before that it is because something is wrong with me. I am a terrible wife.

Fuck everything but being skinny. Nothing is allowed to distract me from my goal. 

I fucking hate myself.