So first thing in the morning I am going to take a hoodia instead of my adderal and see if it can help me boost my metabolism and not be hungry all day. I also need to stop eating out of boredom. Like fucking now. This shit is getting ridiculous. I'm 144 pounds. God forbid I get any fatter or my boyfriend will freaking dump me.
What the fuck is wrong with me.
I feel like I have no self control. Like I can't do anything right. Some one please help me. Please get me back to a beautiful person. I want to be 120 pounds. I think I can do it I just need to drink a fucking ton of water.
Then I will be able to wear my swim suit and go out and feel pretty. Until then I will just have to be an ugly short little girl. Who will never be good enough ever.
So fucking there.
This is about me and my life. It is my journey through time and space and about personal discovery. This will be triggering and hard to read, you have been warned.
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