Saturday, January 21, 2012

I'm fucking huge.

I weigh 140 pounds. And I have been having a shit time getting it back off.  I might fucking kill something.  I don't know what to do.

This shit is on my last nerve, I want to sleep but I can't. I want to breath but I can't. And now I sit at home trying not to get high. Trying to convince myself that I can do this in a healthy positive way. Wanting to starve myself to be pretty.

There are a few words that I heard that currently are helping me get by:

"There is no food that tastes as good as skinny feels."

I want to punch myself in the face. I am literally fighting a war with a mirror and scale. I fight this war every single morning.

Help.

S.M.

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