So I'm miserable but what else is new. I didn't weigh myself this morning and I don't think I want to after I ate because the whole thing will be fucked up. I don't know what to do about the whole Kelvin issue. He dosnt even act like he cares about me. I feel so alone and he dosnt even want to try and fix our relationship. It's been shit this whole time and I'm scared and alone constantly.
Not to mention that last night I was molested by a total creep who refused to listen to the word no. Kelvin didn't seem to care when I told him. Guess that's how boys are. Fuck them. Although he did leave me alone after I threatened him with a knife. Wonderful how that is isn't it.
The worst part is that my two friends were there treating me like a third wheel and fucking two random dudes in a swimming pool. And since I refused to go skinny dipping I was hassled called names and overall treated like shit. Needless to say I grabbed my shit and started walking home. Kelvin did come get me after I called him and begged him to come save me. He reluctanty agreed and then proceeded to ignore me before he dropped me off at his apartment and left to his dads house for the night. I cried my eyes out for three hours and called him when he yelled at me and said that because I wouldn't let him have friends that smoke pot that I was a bad girl friend and all this other shit. He told me I should trust him and all of this shit. Despite the fact that he has never given me any reason to do so. I am not okay with him and he dosnt even seem to care. So I guess this is a loveless relationship and I'm condemed to live out my days as a lifeless shell of a human being. This sucks and I hate it here I wish I had a home to go back to. I guess this is what being homeless really means. I have a roof over my head, but no home.
Until next time,
SM
This is about me and my life. It is my journey through time and space and about personal discovery. This will be triggering and hard to read, you have been warned.
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