Some things can't be helped, some people are meant to come into our lives and teach us a lesson. Wolf has finally taught me the lesson he was meant to teach. Trust no one, and never forget that they will use you and leave you with nothing but stained bloody sheets and a hefty fine. This would be the third time someone has touched me against my will. I was too young and stupid to react the first time, but now I am bigger stronger and have the tendencies of a lion in the cage. When I said no he didn't stop and all my strength left me. I became that scared little girl I thought I had left behind.
I will not be doing this again, I can't even sleep. I'm scared and alone and now I'm backed into a corner and left with one option. Run. I'm trying to fight but my mind is shutting down and I can't breath, then I'm falling and screaming in a void that no one can hear me. I want to come home and to stay as far away from home as I can. Home is where I am no one and all that is there is the shell of who I have become.
Fear is shaking my heart and my lungs and turning me into a helpless kitten. Someone save me this is my nightmare, this is my tomb, this is all happening again.
SM
This is about me and my life. It is my journey through time and space and about personal discovery. This will be triggering and hard to read, you have been warned.
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