I am in New York, crazy as it might seem I love it here. This might be my new favorite place in the whole wide world. I want to move here so bad now. It is absolutely beautiful, and if you smile at people while you are alone on the subway they think you are crazy! :]
So besides New York being fantastic, love and miss my Fiance so much. WOLF COME HERE AND GIVE ME CUDDLES IMMEDIATELY! It's extremely taxing being away from him. I am so needy it is sad.
So I want to get married in October in New York. It is so beautiful here with the leaves and the trees. I am so jealous of the people who get to live here. I found a bunch of wedding photo's and dress ideas so now I am on the hunt for dresses and other such wedding details. Of course my lovely Wolf isn't here to help me. *Depressed Sigh* I am hoping he will be getting involved soon, and that he wants to do similar stuff as me. That way this can run very smoothly. :]
Holy god, I can't wait to be married. I wont it to be done today so we can just skip the hard stuff, you know like money and finding a place to live, and just get to the happy couple thing. I am so pathetic. I mean really I've gone from the amazing hardcore lets go dance Kandi Kid and turned into a sap. GAH! Someone shoot me please.
Other than the wedding stuff I have officially decided to avoid direct contact with Rat, MomaBear, and Weasel. I am not going to not be friends with them, they are family after all but I don't feel as if I can really trust them and I know they don't trust me. As such I am not going to try extremely hard or go out of my way to see them. I am going to let them decide when I am worth it and when I am not. I will be expecting nothing from them and as such I will not be disappointed yet again. I refuse to let these things happen, I have been letting people hurt me and I know that it is wrong. Every time I think I have gotten my point across I hit another brick wall. I really just want to be done with it. I'm really just done.
Other than that:
If vodka was water and I was a duck, I would swim to the bottom and never come up.
But vodka's not water, and I'm not a duck, so pass me the bottle and shut the fuck up.
Written by: iEaT tOxIc CrAyOnS
I found this quote at GaiaOnline.com I thought it was brilliant and I just had to share it. I do not know the writers actual name so I am hoping her username will suffice. I am curious to hear what other people actually think of this. So please let me know.
Yours Truly,
Mayhem
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