So.... I thought we were gonna be cool.

But I guess we are not. 

Call me when were friends again. 

I'm fed the fuck up.

So I've been trying to lose weight forever, and recently with my going to california I've just been skipping the gym and eating healthy to hang out with some people and fucking around a lot. I'm really tired of me. Like what the fuck am I doing? Jesus christ, I'm a fat ugly whale. FUCK MY LIFE.

So I'm not going to eat anything bad for me until I lose all this fucking weight. Again.

I am so ready, to be back where I used to be, I've even thought about getting back on my nefarious drug habits to lose some weight. not permanently of course just long enough to get skinny. :] It could work, with the exception that I will lose my job. That shit would just suck. So I suppose unless I find a job where they don't drug test that isn't an option. :/ I will eventually make this shit work. I just don't know how yet.

Keep me in your thoughts. :]